This post encapsulates so much. The death that is part of life, the life that continues beyond death, the miracles out of nowhere like grace that penetrate in places we can't see, the deep life changing sadness of loss and the healing ether of love it's all held in.
Damn, Sadie Jay. You write from a real place and you are a gift. Thank you sincerely for sharing this. Blessings to all. May your loved ones know a joy filled transition and may your heart lighten soon. ❤️ XOX
You said it. And so well. This has touched my body, mind, will, emotion, soul and spirit. And...in the end, it is just us. We are not the sum total of our stuff, we are the sum total of who we are when we face our Maker. This mortal-ness holds the real us. It is a shell we drag around, and what we choose to put into that shell and drag around with us, to shape us for better and good or shallow and evil is ALL that matters. There are not enough trash bags.
I say yes to everything Kathleen said so, so beautifully.
Blessings of peace upon you and your tribe, Sadie Jay. You are a warrior and an inspiration, and I'm honored to know you. May the spiral of grief lead you up and out. xoxox
Thank you for sharing your story, which helps me to prepare for the inevitable in my life. Mom was very smart to minimize her exposure to those Medical Devils.
Sadie J. Thank you so much for sharing what you and your family have gone through. I can, as I'm sure others too, can relate, having lived through similar ordeals. Praise God that family and friends rallied during these horrific events, losses. My prayers are for you, 'Hubs', and your family, for your peace of mind and hearts, for renewed strength, and Faith undaunted in the days and months ahead. God bless you always and in all ways. 💕🙏
Thank you so much for the kind words. We will meet our loved ones on the other side, but until then, without them, there is so much work to be done between then and now. Like I said...I am just numb.
Hard to hit that 'like' icon....so sorry Sadie Jay. Beautiful post that captures the gamut in this life - sorrow and pain with blessings and small miracles. Praying you are able to find some joy & laughter to ease the pain.
Sadie Jay, I am so very sorry for your losses. Indescribable. May your faith ease your sorrows...
Yes, life without the mother we loved so deeply is never the same, but you will see her again. You will see her again and your loved ones who will watch over you from heaven.
Again, my sincere condolences to you and your family, Sadie Jay.
Thank you so much. I so appreciate all the support. It's been awful. I know people have had it way worse in many different situations, but this is our terrible. Trying to stand up on wobbly legs now.♥♥
If you're experience is like my own, there will come a day when you remember her with joy and love, but all the pain will have faded away. I pray that day comes soon. 🙏🙏🙏
Thank you Tim. I appreciate the encouragement. It was just one thing after another and until all the ties are cut and things are sold, maybe only then will I be able to breathe again.
I forgot about the things sold/disposed of struggle. Five years back my father died. It was my job to clear the house. After months of wandering through his house and not nearly enough progress, a VERY GOOD friend took over and finished the job. I will be forever grateful.
Grief is an ever evolving trial. Our dear friend attended the funeral of their neighbor's 8 yr old who was at Camp Mystic on Saturday. She relayed that it was beautifully done in the midst of overwhelming grief. I cannot imagine that grief. The death of our loved ones carries such pain. Those of us who enjoy a relationship with our Savior see death differently. We know where we're going and where fellow believers go. We'll see them again. But, the separation is at times unbearable. We lost our oldest brother in late 2019. Died in his sleep. It was a broken heart that took him, we have no doubt. His youngest daughter died of an overdose... an exceptional trauma nurse who knew better... Right? I miss him every single day. We buried my mom, dad, aunt, and our brother in a 10 year span. All of it burned at our souls but we know where they are and it's far better than here.... Your post was beautifully written. I am deeply sorry for your losses.
That camp flood and the resulting loss was such a travesty. We comfort ourselves with the knowing that mankind has borne tragedy for thousands of years and peace comes with knowing we will see our loved ones on the other side.
I pray for my brother, who lost his son and his mother. He had an aneurysm a year ago, then open heart surgery when they found out the stents would not go in. He is an Alpha male and has never been sick a day in his life and all this hit him in a years time-span.
All of our grief is different, yet it is the same. It is the same if we have the peace of knowing we will see our loved ones again on the other side. We lost my Hubs dad, his mom and my dad all within a 5 month span in 2005. And he was up in the Bering Sea during all of it. My kids and I went through those. But we had mom for another 20 years, so I am blessed to have that time with her. Thank you for your thoughtful comment.♥
My heart is with you Sadie Jay. Thanks for sharing where you have been and where you are. It’s raw and real. I’m so sorry for the deep losses you and your family are experiencing. Having experienced similar deep losses (our niece in an instantaneous car accident and my favorite SIL to breast cancer -although not the same as you losing your mom) within 4 weeks of each other in April of this year -I understand on some level, the numbness. The tailspin. The deep grief. The shift in perspective that takes over.
We just spent this past 5 days celebrating as a family (all 30 of them who came down from Michigan) as my son married the love of his life. It was a painful weekend of missing two dearly loved family members who were supposed to be here, and at the same time trying to celebrate life. One pulls you one way and the other pulls you the other way. How do you grieve and celebrate at the same time? How do you celebrate when you look into the empty eyes of your BIL who just wants his wife here with him, and your other BIL who just wants his child back with him? All while you celebrate the life your son is beginning?
I said good night and good bye tonight to my one BIL and SIL who have been staying with us this weekend, and then crawled into bed to read what you wrote. They had JUST poured out their heart about their grief from the car accident. They, JUST minutes before reading your words shared the raw and real struggles to find how to move forward each day. How to hold on to the hope we have of seeing our loved ones again some day. The feelings are real and the emotions are deep.
Our family experiences run parallel right now to your family SJ. You are not alone even though it feels like it.
You will be back. Better than ever and forever changed. I miss you my friend. Peace to your grieving heart. ❤️
Congratulations on your new daughter and your new chapter. I have decided to look forward and not back, but until I cut ties with California completely, it is not final.
Your poor family. But, life HAS to go on. I know you missed the missing, like a great void in your day. I know that God is good and merciful, so they were able to look down and see all of you at the wedding and were there with you in spirit, and side by side. God bless you all too. Here is to New Chapters.♥♥♥
I understand the cutting ties with California, and the finality you need. Keep looking forward for sure. The miracle of what your family was given through knowing your nephew is with Jesus is nothing short of an amazing gift Jesus gave you. To help you move forward. Here is to New Chapters 💕💕💕
This post encapsulates so much. The death that is part of life, the life that continues beyond death, the miracles out of nowhere like grace that penetrate in places we can't see, the deep life changing sadness of loss and the healing ether of love it's all held in.
Damn, Sadie Jay. You write from a real place and you are a gift. Thank you sincerely for sharing this. Blessings to all. May your loved ones know a joy filled transition and may your heart lighten soon. ❤️ XOX
You said it. And so well. This has touched my body, mind, will, emotion, soul and spirit. And...in the end, it is just us. We are not the sum total of our stuff, we are the sum total of who we are when we face our Maker. This mortal-ness holds the real us. It is a shell we drag around, and what we choose to put into that shell and drag around with us, to shape us for better and good or shallow and evil is ALL that matters. There are not enough trash bags.
I say yes to everything Kathleen said so, so beautifully.
Blessings of peace upon you and your tribe, Sadie Jay. You are a warrior and an inspiration, and I'm honored to know you. May the spiral of grief lead you up and out. xoxox
Thanks Mary. It is much appreciated.♥
Oh SadieJay. I am so very sorry for your profound losses.
Thank you for sharing your story.
May you be comforted by God’s promises. 😘❤️🙏🙏🙏
Thank you Laura. The comfort is coming, I know it is there. Just oh-so-numb. I appreciate the ♥.
Thank you for sharing your story, which helps me to prepare for the inevitable in my life. Mom was very smart to minimize her exposure to those Medical Devils.
Yeah, it was a truly terrible experience in that place. I didn't leave her side. I don't trust any of it. So evil. Thanks for reading.
Sadie J. Thank you so much for sharing what you and your family have gone through. I can, as I'm sure others too, can relate, having lived through similar ordeals. Praise God that family and friends rallied during these horrific events, losses. My prayers are for you, 'Hubs', and your family, for your peace of mind and hearts, for renewed strength, and Faith undaunted in the days and months ahead. God bless you always and in all ways. 💕🙏
Thank you so much for the kind words. We will meet our loved ones on the other side, but until then, without them, there is so much work to be done between then and now. Like I said...I am just numb.
Hard to hit that 'like' icon....so sorry Sadie Jay. Beautiful post that captures the gamut in this life - sorrow and pain with blessings and small miracles. Praying you are able to find some joy & laughter to ease the pain.
Thank you Donna. Small miracles and one day at a time. Everyone grieves differently and i have to remember it is okay not to be okay.♥
I just have no words. Tears came to my eyes , and I’m not a cryer. I felt your emotion. My heart goes be out to you and your loved ones.
Thank you so much Donna. Appreciate your thoughts and words. ♥
Sadie Jay, I am so very sorry for your losses. Indescribable. May your faith ease your sorrows...
Yes, life without the mother we loved so deeply is never the same, but you will see her again. You will see her again and your loved ones who will watch over you from heaven.
Again, my sincere condolences to you and your family, Sadie Jay.
Thank you so much. I so appreciate all the support. It's been awful. I know people have had it way worse in many different situations, but this is our terrible. Trying to stand up on wobbly legs now.♥♥
If you're experience is like my own, there will come a day when you remember her with joy and love, but all the pain will have faded away. I pray that day comes soon. 🙏🙏🙏
Thank you Tim. I appreciate the encouragement. It was just one thing after another and until all the ties are cut and things are sold, maybe only then will I be able to breathe again.
I forgot about the things sold/disposed of struggle. Five years back my father died. It was my job to clear the house. After months of wandering through his house and not nearly enough progress, a VERY GOOD friend took over and finished the job. I will be forever grateful.
Grief is an ever evolving trial. Our dear friend attended the funeral of their neighbor's 8 yr old who was at Camp Mystic on Saturday. She relayed that it was beautifully done in the midst of overwhelming grief. I cannot imagine that grief. The death of our loved ones carries such pain. Those of us who enjoy a relationship with our Savior see death differently. We know where we're going and where fellow believers go. We'll see them again. But, the separation is at times unbearable. We lost our oldest brother in late 2019. Died in his sleep. It was a broken heart that took him, we have no doubt. His youngest daughter died of an overdose... an exceptional trauma nurse who knew better... Right? I miss him every single day. We buried my mom, dad, aunt, and our brother in a 10 year span. All of it burned at our souls but we know where they are and it's far better than here.... Your post was beautifully written. I am deeply sorry for your losses.
That camp flood and the resulting loss was such a travesty. We comfort ourselves with the knowing that mankind has borne tragedy for thousands of years and peace comes with knowing we will see our loved ones on the other side.
I pray for my brother, who lost his son and his mother. He had an aneurysm a year ago, then open heart surgery when they found out the stents would not go in. He is an Alpha male and has never been sick a day in his life and all this hit him in a years time-span.
All of our grief is different, yet it is the same. It is the same if we have the peace of knowing we will see our loved ones again on the other side. We lost my Hubs dad, his mom and my dad all within a 5 month span in 2005. And he was up in the Bering Sea during all of it. My kids and I went through those. But we had mom for another 20 years, so I am blessed to have that time with her. Thank you for your thoughtful comment.♥
You have had to bear incredible tragedies! It never stops...
We are blessed to have a Savior...
Surely He has borne or grief and carries our sorrows. Isaiah 53:4a
I love that verse, knowing He indeed suffered for us and carries our sorrows. What a Savior!
Amen.
My heart is with you Sadie Jay. Thanks for sharing where you have been and where you are. It’s raw and real. I’m so sorry for the deep losses you and your family are experiencing. Having experienced similar deep losses (our niece in an instantaneous car accident and my favorite SIL to breast cancer -although not the same as you losing your mom) within 4 weeks of each other in April of this year -I understand on some level, the numbness. The tailspin. The deep grief. The shift in perspective that takes over.
We just spent this past 5 days celebrating as a family (all 30 of them who came down from Michigan) as my son married the love of his life. It was a painful weekend of missing two dearly loved family members who were supposed to be here, and at the same time trying to celebrate life. One pulls you one way and the other pulls you the other way. How do you grieve and celebrate at the same time? How do you celebrate when you look into the empty eyes of your BIL who just wants his wife here with him, and your other BIL who just wants his child back with him? All while you celebrate the life your son is beginning?
I said good night and good bye tonight to my one BIL and SIL who have been staying with us this weekend, and then crawled into bed to read what you wrote. They had JUST poured out their heart about their grief from the car accident. They, JUST minutes before reading your words shared the raw and real struggles to find how to move forward each day. How to hold on to the hope we have of seeing our loved ones again some day. The feelings are real and the emotions are deep.
Our family experiences run parallel right now to your family SJ. You are not alone even though it feels like it.
You will be back. Better than ever and forever changed. I miss you my friend. Peace to your grieving heart. ❤️
Congratulations on your new daughter and your new chapter. I have decided to look forward and not back, but until I cut ties with California completely, it is not final.
Your poor family. But, life HAS to go on. I know you missed the missing, like a great void in your day. I know that God is good and merciful, so they were able to look down and see all of you at the wedding and were there with you in spirit, and side by side. God bless you all too. Here is to New Chapters.♥♥♥
I understand the cutting ties with California, and the finality you need. Keep looking forward for sure. The miracle of what your family was given through knowing your nephew is with Jesus is nothing short of an amazing gift Jesus gave you. To help you move forward. Here is to New Chapters 💕💕💕