Mea Culpa

No excuses

I want to start this out by being honest with all of you. These last 4.5 years have been rough. On all of us. None has come trough this unscathed.

So, I must now admit my great hubris. Great hubris in thinking that I had everything right from the very beginning and some other people were just so deluded into believing a lie. Or lies.

I will say that my spiritual quest to do what is right in the eyes of my Creator has been accelerated, but I am still human. Human enough to think and judge by what I see on the outside. Yep. THAT. Sheesh. It says somewhere that man looks on the outward appearance but the Lord sees what is in our heart. I am ever so grateful for that grace. Turns out I am one of the masses who craves that grace and is saved by it. I am ashamed of my thoughts and some things I have said.

There has been sown amongst us seeds of confusion and chaos. Whether we fed and watered them knowingly or unknowingly, they have become larger than the lives we are all leading.

I will be one to stand up and say ENOUGH. I refuse to listen to an enemy who wants nothing more than my destruction. An enemy who wants nothing more than for me to hate. An enemy that wants me to feel powerless, hopeless, depressed and degraded. An enemy who wants me to feel divided from those I love and comfortable in seclusion and fear. I REFUSE to give in to the mindset of lies. Lies and fear go hand in hand and you can’t have one without the other.

I am stronger because of the lies of the enemy. My vision is larger and my will is greater than that of any man who believes there is one iota of power to be had here, inside me.

If I let the enemy in, he comes in as a flood. All it takes is one small area of my life when I don’t do what is right and the enemy takes a foothold. I am here to say NO MORE.

So, please forgive me for any offense I have inadvertently caused any one of you. Ever.

I hope we will pray for those who persecute us and love those who hate us. We are more powerful than we know, and together we are stronger than they want us to be. Stand with me. Keep the FAITH.