I have been asking “Why in the world am I living here and now?”. I think it is an important question that we all need to be asking ourselves. Why now? Why me? I know that I know that I know. I see all these things happening right in front of my face and have actually cried out to God. There is a lot of power in bowing my knee before my Creator and humbling myself. I cried out and He has answered me. I have volunteered myself up to change places with Moses or Elijah. I am sure there are people far more suited to living in these times than little ol’ me.
I know that we are all living in a dystopian nightmare. Or, so it seems. But, I feel hope. Yes, hope. I cannot wait to see what God will do next. It is like seeing the movie version of a book you have read a thousand times. Only, it is playing out in real life. Right in front of us. How blessed are we?? How can I be smiling today when all I hear are terrible things? I know the end. I have read The Book.
The roller coaster is speeding up. My job here is to let no person leave my presence without knowing the Truth.
I have had to dig deep into who I am these last 30 months. I have burned old ideas of who I thought I was. That chick is so gone. I am more than this stinky flesh, but, for now it carts around who I really am, so I have to take care of it. The blood that runs through me is the blood of patriots, founders of churches in 1500’s, evangelists, people who didn’t take NO for an answer. People who were oppressed and forced to walk over a thousand miles from one home to another . This flesh is the sum of all who have gone before me and it has all ended up in the pile of skin, bones and too much fat which constitute WHO I AM.
I have to do what I know to do. That is it. And, much to my chagrin, my knowledge base is expanding, every single day. So, more is expected of me, every single day. Sitting in ignorance or with my head in the sand is not an option. I will press on and become stronger. I will become stronger with every rock they try to bury me with. I will become stronger just when they expect me to be the weakest. I know that I am more than they ever thought I could be and I cannot be erased. EVER.
I have great certainty that I will be put in the paths of those who need what have to offer. I have great assurance that I have NO control whatsoever over circumstances, but I certainly control my reaction. It is truly a wonderful time and there are great rumblings in the earth. Above and below. I am NOT here by accident. I can only urge all of my fellow travelers to be stronger than you ever thought you could be. Because there is a reason we are here right now. Be ever watchful of the part you have to play in the drama that is unfolding on this earth. Heed any call that you hear, because we are not accidentally here. We are here for a purpose. What kind of life would it be to think we are floating through this time and space together just to get to the end of our collective story and descend into a dark abyss that someone deemed as our fate? NO. NO. NO.
I intend to be the reflection of a greater light than myself, and where the Lord intends to shine me will be made clear. I am here. Ready. I know that I am not alone and neither are you. This body is ephemeral but the spirit inside is eternal. Just be the light.
“… Who knows if you haven’t come to
the Kingdom for such a time as this?”
Esther 4:14
Story of Esther here.